My Ray Of Hope

So as I sit here eating my lunch all alone, I have come to realize how awkward eating really is. Have you ever thought about that? Especially eating salad, since it’s so easy for it to get stuck in your teeth and then make a fool out of yourself by later talking to someone with a partial lettuce leaf hanging out of your mouth. Yeah, that’s pretty gorgeous. lol.

So if you know me, I love to listen into other people’s conversations. As I’m waiting here for my 12 o’clock class I come across a freshman girl and some guy saying he remembers her and so he tries for five minutes to remember her name and he can’t. lol. Then he tells her that she doesn’t look like a Tara which was her name and that she looks more like a Katie. So she’s just awkwardly sitting and giving one word answers to him. Then he starts talking to some other chick about how she never texted him back. So what I’ve learned from this listening in is that men are well pigs. lol . Sorry for the rambling, I’m bored.

Sorry, I haven’t posted in awhile. I kind of got busy with organizing, moving and getting used to college. Oh college. I’m really enjoying it, I’ve met friends, have gotten adjusted to my classes, adjusted to living with and sharing a bathroom with 20 other people. But I haven’t quite got over that missing friends and family hump. Last Wednesday as I’m waiting inside my geology lecture I just started sobbing because when I think of geology I think of nature and then I think of my mom. I was a hot mess, and then on top of that some asshole decides to pull the fire alarm so all 600 or so of us file out of our second story lecture hall and wait for 3 firetrucks to pull up and go investigate a non burning building. I know, I know I’m only 45 minutes from home but this is the first time I’ve ever really been away from my mom for such long periods of time. You can call me a baby I don’t care. I’m just a super mama’s girl. And then there’s the whole friends thing. I’m SO happy I have Molly with me, she’s awesome at talking to people and I’m not the best but I’m trying and working hard on being myself (my awesome charm on my charm bracelet. <3 you buchanan’s) But unfortunately even all the people I’ve met here I just miss all my girls from home. I miss walking into Spanish and seeing estela and Marta and all the fun we had together, especially when estela and I went on our epic photoshoot at walmart! :) And I miss Ann and how we became super besties this year and all the fun we had in fifth grade band and this summer. Then there is Ginger who I’m so happy I became so close with this summer, she’s such an amazing girl on the inside and outside. She makes me laugh so much. KT, oh my gosh I miss her so much, her witty comebacks and awesome personality and just how she is so quiet usually but get her into different atmospheres and she’s CRAY CRAY KT! :) basically I just wish I would have applied at u of I or that me and all of my friends could have gone to the same school just like hs because I miss them so such. Skype really sucks up at the worse times when you’re trying to see all your besties or talk to your mom. Ahhhhhhhhhh
Ok, so I’m sure people thought I was crazy going home the first weekend of school but oh well I missed home and my friends so I came home and saw my family and friends and felt 300 times better. And I got to see Erika and the band. Then I’m coming home next weekend and I’m already looking forward to it, 5 days. Not counting or anything.